Is the wait worth waiting for?

Sanjana: there is no point talking to you. You never understand.

Rakesh: hey I have always been like this. You failed to see the reality and now you are blaming me.

Sanjana: yes am at fault for having misjudged you. Anyway good bye.

The line went dead and tears started streaming down her eyes. She closed her eyes tight to stop the flashes of the in numerous conversations that had happened between them. She sat there helplessly waiting for his call.

It had been four months after the conversation and she had not got any sort of communication from him.

Sanjana was working when she had got a mail on her personal mail one and half years ago. It was his mail asking for her number. She sent him her number and in less than five minutes she got his message. Her joy knew no bounds as he had vanished all of a sudden a few months before and had returned when she had lost all hopes.

As a couple of months flew by, they both started liking each other. However after three months of seeing each other one day he said that he was no longer sure about their relationship as he was hurt due to his past.

The first crack appeared then and the innumerous attempts of Sanjana to determine what went wrong between them failed. As days flew, their daily conversations turned out to be weekly then fort-nightly and off-lately as and when he needed.

A lot was happening in Sanjana's life at the moment- her close friend had walked out on her, her dream of doing masters was washed in drain as she got to know that the name of the postgraduate degree she had enrolled would be getting changed as per UGC norms, the pressure to perform in her new team and the pressure to get married (though not from her parents). All these in addition to Rakesh's ignorance.

He failed to listen to her and had started to call her when he had something to share or crib about.

The conversation before the last call had gone like this:

Rakesh: why are you not getting married? are you still pondering over me?

Sanjana: (stiffling a tear) lets not talk about this as was decided and agreed upon earlier.

Rakesh: I understand but tell me is it because of me that you are rejecting everyone?

Sanjana: ( thinks in her mind afraid to confess: yes.. I still love you) no

Rakesh: hmmm. Am sorry for what I have done. You were the one who brought me out of the dark
(called love) don't push me into it. I have no where else to go apart from you.

After few mins of talking the topic got re-diverted to Sanjana's marriage.
 
Rakesh: don't be like this. I feel guilty.

Sanjana: why should you be guilty? if I say that I m waiting for you will you accept and marry me? 

Rakesh: no. I can't marry u as I have not thought about marriage yet. You deserve someone better
 
Sanjana: hmmm (thinks when you are not accepting me who else will?)

Similar conversations had happened between the two of them for over an year. Sanjana had thought that Rakesh would accept her someday yet till date he has not returned.

Will Rakesh return?

Can Sanjana wait till then?

Or have they moved on?

Is the wait worth waiting for??

Only time will tell..

The Krishna Key- A book review

'The Krishna Key' is the third fiction of Ashwin Sanghi. The book has been written after a lot of channelized research on one of the greatest mythological characters- Krishna, the eight incarnation of Lord Vishnu on whose existence there has been a lot of speculations in today's world.

Ashwin has brought out the intricate beauty of the character in the form fiction and has backed it up with facts! I would say the book is articulately written touching upon the past from Mahabharata and weaving it into the present times. The way he goes to the past and makes a transition into the present times is enchanting.

The reader gets a different insight into the Mahabharata.. The view which we wouldn't have thought even existed. The book also brings to light the forgotten glory of our motherland 'India' and also refurbishes the history lessons that we have long since forgotten. It also throws light on India's 'secular' nature in that though the people practice different religions and have different beliefs, the teachings are the same in all religions.

It leaves the reader thirsty to read and understand the Mahabharata with the new dimension that has been given just to tie up the loose ends left by the author (the facts that are not required as part of the plot).

The book dwells into the astronomy and also into latest technologies such as carbon dating, genetic engineering and its relevance to the past and its implications in the future.

Pages: 464
Publisher: Westland limited
Cost: 125
Rating: 4/5

The story also touches the intricate beauty of friendship. It revolves around the lives of five people and how an artifact changes their lives. The artifact- a historical seal left behind by Krishna acts as a catalyst to string the chain of events that takes place in the quest of the unknown.The book takes its readers on a journey across parts of north India- be it Dwarka, Jaipur, Himalayas and somnathpura.

Will the unknown be unlocked with the Key or does it reflect on the thought- 'the path is better than the destination'?

To find out grab your copy of 'The Krishna Key'. It definitely is worth reading..

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About the Author: Ashwin is an entrepreneur by day and a novelist by night. He has authored the best selling novels: 'Rozabal line' and 'Chanakya's Chant'.  Having read 'Chanakya's Chant', I longed to read 'The Krishna Key'. Ashwin is one among the few new age Indian authors who dare to delve into the Indian history as well as mythology.

Mis-communication or the lack of it?

Have you ever wondered why the person who meant the most in life does not mean anything today?

What might have started as a small miscommunication may have been turned into a major tiff just because we hesitate to sit and sort out the differences which may seem trivial at the initial stages. However as days go by and on looking back we realise that the issue could have been resolved by sparing a few minutes.

Most importantly the people involved must confront each other and resolve their differences rather than going about telling others about it which only complicates things. Yet how many of us actually do this? Instead we let things be which will only make matters worse

You are being watched!!!!

As i finished reading the book- 'A Special Relationship' by Douglas Kennedy (the author of internationally best selling book which was filmed 'The Pursuit of Happiness') the happenings of the past year which was a complete disaster barring a couple of things flashes across my eyes.

In the novel the protagonist's life turns helter skelter by her actions and words with the only person whom she trusts- her lover turned husband. It ends with a positive note though with how her reaction to the negatives and her sticking to her principles reinstates her life.

The downturn of events in my life started last may and everything that i have said, everything that i have done, everything that i have been has been used against me and has turned me into the person i am today..

Lost the friend who meant a lot as a result of what i had done- value my self-respect when the need arose..

Lost the love of my life as a result of what i had been- trusting him completely and hoping that he would stick to his words which eventually turned out to be only words with no feelings or meaning.

Lastly the result of what i had said- I opted for a team change in the same organisation and my boss screwed my appraisal. He thought that by hampering my appraisal he could cause distress in my personal life.

Thanks to all these which have made me stronger at the cost of losing trust on the words- friendship, love and forcing me to eye people with suspicion.

Hurting sentiments and feelings has become a favorite hobby of everyone around so better be careful about
                    what you are!!
                            what you do!!
                                    what you say!!

for everything can be taken down and used against you. The more cautious you are and the more introvert you are helps you lead life better.. You are being watched, analyzed and evaluated each moment of your life..

World Vision 2020

This was the prompt given to the on-the-spot collage competition during the independence day celebrations which Huda and myself participated. It was the first time i took part in collage competition apart from hosting it while in college.


We had half an hour time to come up with a collage and we were the last minute registrants. We wanted a break from the everyday routine so we registered on the condition that the team hosting it had to supply us the newspapers, adhesives, cardboard. ( i know it was too much ;))

We went to the cafeteria where it was being hosted and were given the supplies. We were going through the different pictures in the papers when the HR announced the topic on which we were supposed to do the collage.

We finalised a few pictures which we thought made sense to the topic and while I was cutting them, huda went about glueing them onto the KG Card board that we were handed out.

We had decided that we will divide the cardboard into two halves- one half depicting the good and other half the bad aspects of 2020.

It came out well and finally the moment arrived when we had to say something about why we have chosen the pictures post which the judge asked a couple of questions.

This is what we did:

the good aspects about 2020 were: women empowerment, entrepreneurship, more emphasis to non academic concepts like music etc

While the bad aspects comprised of deforestation paving way to concrete jungles, advancements in warfare technology.

last but not the least the hand in the centre which was chained to depict that it was within us to make the world a better place to live in.

Seeing our collage, the judge was impressed and we were given first prize amongst the six teams which had participated.

We were beaming with pride.. :)

The second day of the celebrations had dumbcharades in which we participated and came first out of the 12 teams that had participated. Another first for me.. :) Thanks to huda who had trained me and also the various coded actions that we had practised. There were three rounds in which huda enacted the movie names in first and third round and I in second. I took less than ten secs to identify the movie names while it took abt 30-50 secs for huda as I was literally dumb and nervous. The movie names we got were

first round- Vicky donor(she enacted Ayushman and people around were dumb founded when I guessed the movie as they had expected that it was a little tough one to enact)

Second round- bombay talkies

Third round- bhootnath

In-orbit or out-of-orbit

The last couple of days have been quite refreshing. Got a break from the regular routine of writing the functional specifications, executing the test cases, regular chit-chats about office politics, onsite opportunities, hikes and stuff.

I had been asked to attend behavioral training in the far-off Whitefield office which is situated in the global axis building opposite the famous Satya Sai hospital. The two days had been full of fun and activities.

Today being the second and last day, the training got over at 4 and we (me and a couple of gals) had one hour to go for the company bus so we strolled out with our backpacks and wandered to the much heard of new mall- The Inorbit Mall only to kill time.

Baskin Robins, Mad Over Donuts were there to welcome us. As we went inside there were other shops like Pepe jeans, Levis, And, UCB, Shoppers Stop all blaring loud and wooing the customers with their whooping discounts.

We window shopped in Pepe, Levis and finally in the 'And' store ,a friend of mine bought a leggings and we ventured into Shoppers Stop as i wanted to buy a jacket and was searching for the women section when all of a sudden the fire alarm went off.

My friends panicked and rushed  to the security to collect their bags and come out of the mall.

As we reached the security to collect the bags, he tried to pacify us saying that there was maintenance going on and the alarms were being tested. :p yet they were in no mood to listen and our wandering time had got over forcing us to return to our office just-in-time to board our buses..

Am thinking if the mall has to be renamed as 'out-of-orbit' instead of Inorbit :D ;)

Love- a fresh insight

Love is beautiful as long as it has two hearts in it than two minds thinking of it. 

Hearts and the innumerable feelings in it and its timely expression will keep the relationship alive rather than the application of the mind which rather pulls apart the two souls in the relationship as it more often than not tends to be narcissist in that it just thinks of the benefit from being together rather than the pleasure it can draw by caring, sharing, loving, expressing and trusting.. 

P.S: just now finished reading Nicholas Sparks-' The lucky one' which like all his novels make me pen my unexpressed thoughts in a million ways.. Well the novel encapsulates the lives of four people and how a photograph found accidentally in the battle ground changes their lives. It also emphasizes on the fact that its better to think with a calm mind even on encountering something that we wish is not true and also that we should try to find the reason behind the motive than put an abrupt end to the bond shared.

Which animal are you?

Last year during one of the behavioral trainings at office, we were asked to relate ourselves to any animal and draw a picture of the animal and justify the training team as to why we chose the animal?

Many people came up with animals such as turtle, duck, elephant, cow, fish, horse etc..

I chose to be an ant because of its hardworking nature, its concern for its present and future, its social nature: it prefers to be in a team and believes in teamwork. More importantly it prefers to mind its own until disturbed. Once disturbed it surely does teach a lesson. Also it has a never give up attitude which is very essential for one's survival in today's world.

Which animal are you? Ponder over and do leave a comment in the comment box :)

With love
Aar Kay :)
- Life is to be understood backwards but lived forwards

Miss you thatha

Its been 9 years since you left us yet the memories are afresh. It seems as though it was just yesterday that we bid our final adieu to you.

I remember my childhood where i would stand near the gate in the pretext of waiting for you while in reality i was looking forward for my dad's jeep. I remember how much you cared for me just because i stayed away from my parents. I remember those evenings as it were yesterday when you would first wipe the dirt off your TVS and then freshen up for the hot supper that was prepared specially for you. I remember the strain that you would undergo when you carried the heavy jackfruit or the watermelon which would be heavy for you to carry considering your ill health yet you wanted to make your grand children happy. I loved your never-say-die attitude.. You never gave up though it was impossible to do..

I loved you a lot in many ways yet i may not have told you..

I remember the tehkikaat, chitrahaar and other serials you watched on DD1 . Your interest and knowledge on all general things was commendable and also the unfailing memory of yours. You have had your shares of ups and downs in life yet you were strong

I do remember the day you came by walk to basaveshwarnagar where we stayed during your last days just to say that there was a new college that had been started at rajajinagar by one of the prestigious group of colleges. You believed in me when everyone were skeptical about my tenth results. 

Yet am sorry for being a scaredy cat. I wouldn't come near you when you were bed ridden.. Please forgive me.. I miss you thatha.. Please come back. I need you now more than at any other time..

I am sure you would be proud of both your grand children and also Sharath for we have made our little if not great accomplishments in life..

Yours
Ammani :(

woman's day

A happy women's day to all the women in my life.