Sanjana: there is no point talking to you. You never understand.
Rakesh: hey I have always been like this. You failed to see the reality and now you are blaming me.
Sanjana: yes am at fault for having misjudged you. Anyway good bye.
The line went dead and tears started streaming down her eyes. She closed her eyes tight to stop the flashes of the in numerous conversations that had happened between them. She sat there helplessly waiting for his call.
It had been four months after the conversation and she had not got any sort of communication from him.
Sanjana was working when she had got a mail on her personal mail one and half years ago. It was his mail asking for her number. She sent him her number and in less than five minutes she got his message. Her joy knew no bounds as he had vanished all of a sudden a few months before and had returned when she had lost all hopes.
As a couple of months flew by, they both started liking each other. However after three months of seeing each other one day he said that he was no longer sure about their relationship as he was hurt due to his past.
The first crack appeared then and the innumerous attempts of Sanjana to determine what went wrong between them failed. As days flew, their daily conversations turned out to be weekly then fort-nightly and off-lately as and when he needed.
A lot was happening in Sanjana's life at the moment- her close friend had walked out on her, her dream of doing masters was washed in drain as she got to know that the name of the postgraduate degree she had enrolled would be getting changed as per UGC norms, the pressure to perform in her new team and the pressure to get married (though not from her parents). All these in addition to Rakesh's ignorance.
He failed to listen to her and had started to call her when he had something to share or crib about.
The conversation before the last call had gone like this:
Rakesh: why are you not getting married? are you still pondering over me?
Sanjana: (stiffling a tear) lets not talk about this as was decided and agreed upon earlier.
Rakesh: I understand but tell me is it because of me that you are rejecting everyone?
Sanjana: ( thinks in her mind afraid to confess: yes.. I still love you) no
Rakesh: hmmm. Am sorry for what I have done. You were the one who brought me out of the dark
(called love) don't push me into it. I have no where else to go apart from you.
After few mins of talking the topic got re-diverted to Sanjana's marriage.
Rakesh: don't be like this. I feel guilty.
Sanjana: why should you be guilty? if I say that I m waiting for you will you accept and marry me?
Rakesh: no. I can't marry u as I have not thought about marriage yet. You deserve someone better
Sanjana: hmmm (thinks when you are not accepting me who else will?)
Similar conversations had happened between the two of them for over an year. Sanjana had thought that Rakesh would accept her someday yet till date he has not returned.
Will Rakesh return?
Can Sanjana wait till then?
Or have they moved on?
Is the wait worth waiting for??
Only time will tell..
Rakesh: hey I have always been like this. You failed to see the reality and now you are blaming me.
Sanjana: yes am at fault for having misjudged you. Anyway good bye.
The line went dead and tears started streaming down her eyes. She closed her eyes tight to stop the flashes of the in numerous conversations that had happened between them. She sat there helplessly waiting for his call.
It had been four months after the conversation and she had not got any sort of communication from him.
Sanjana was working when she had got a mail on her personal mail one and half years ago. It was his mail asking for her number. She sent him her number and in less than five minutes she got his message. Her joy knew no bounds as he had vanished all of a sudden a few months before and had returned when she had lost all hopes.
As a couple of months flew by, they both started liking each other. However after three months of seeing each other one day he said that he was no longer sure about their relationship as he was hurt due to his past.
The first crack appeared then and the innumerous attempts of Sanjana to determine what went wrong between them failed. As days flew, their daily conversations turned out to be weekly then fort-nightly and off-lately as and when he needed.
A lot was happening in Sanjana's life at the moment- her close friend had walked out on her, her dream of doing masters was washed in drain as she got to know that the name of the postgraduate degree she had enrolled would be getting changed as per UGC norms, the pressure to perform in her new team and the pressure to get married (though not from her parents). All these in addition to Rakesh's ignorance.
He failed to listen to her and had started to call her when he had something to share or crib about.
The conversation before the last call had gone like this:
Rakesh: why are you not getting married? are you still pondering over me?
Sanjana: (stiffling a tear) lets not talk about this as was decided and agreed upon earlier.
Rakesh: I understand but tell me is it because of me that you are rejecting everyone?
Sanjana: ( thinks in her mind afraid to confess: yes.. I still love you) no
Rakesh: hmmm. Am sorry for what I have done. You were the one who brought me out of the dark
(called love) don't push me into it. I have no where else to go apart from you.
After few mins of talking the topic got re-diverted to Sanjana's marriage.
Rakesh: don't be like this. I feel guilty.
Sanjana: why should you be guilty? if I say that I m waiting for you will you accept and marry me?
Rakesh: no. I can't marry u as I have not thought about marriage yet. You deserve someone better
Sanjana: hmmm (thinks when you are not accepting me who else will?)
Similar conversations had happened between the two of them for over an year. Sanjana had thought that Rakesh would accept her someday yet till date he has not returned.
Will Rakesh return?
Can Sanjana wait till then?
Or have they moved on?
Is the wait worth waiting for??
Only time will tell..
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