"Tears roll down the cheeks but no one to stop them .. People say i care but as usual they are just words ..

The world is filled but , still it gives the feeling of Emptiness .. Life wants itself to be ended but it still continues to beat ..

People are all around saying we are there but still eyes are in search of some one who really cares .. That's life-undefined yet we desire to live..

Two States

There is a book by Chetan Bhagat with the same name where he says that in a love marriage,

A girl has to love the boy,

Boy has to love the girl,

The girl’s family has to love the boy,

The boy’s family has to love the girl,

The girl’s family has to love the boy’s family and

Finally the boy’s family has to love the girl’s family,

& yet in our relationship of 5 years, I feel we never got through the first two phases

I don’t know if what you did is good for both of us (probably you knew the pain of convincing parents). Did you move away from my life in order to save me/ us from the pain of convincing our parents (which they might / may not have accepted- the question remains unanswered!)

In one of the recent newspaper article, it had been written that ‘Love gives comfort and satisfaction, respects, encourages you to break comfort zones and reach for the best within you. Love has the power to make us feel helpless, put us in the hands of the one who loves us. Love, is not something we set to find, it happens. Finding love is left to destiny. We cannot demand love, though we can only command respect.

I feel that these words are pretty true as in any relationship, it’s the sense of belonging/ loving that keeps us alive. The success in any relationship lies in turning 1 alphabet upside down- ‘ME’ turned into ‘WE’ that takes us forward and helps strengthen the bond

However as the topic indicates, there can be only ‘2 states’ – ‘Being in love’ or ‘not loving’. There is no transition state as such and our relationship has taught that to me very brilliantly. Though you kept telling that you will eventually start liking me yet the assurance never came into existence. You have moved on and despite my efforts to let go of your memories and move ahead, am stuck up.

I am just hoping for strength and courage to move on knowing the fact that there has never been a ‘US’ at all. I know I have been temperamental, but my feelings for you are unabashed and sincere. I still remember that you had wanted to be my time-pass friend don’t know when/ why we became close (or atleast me) and hence it was easy for you to move on while having given my best to you, I am yet to come to terms.

Well I know that neither you, nor me can change what we shared between the two of us or the present.

Wish you luck,

bye